Some weird happenings

          So I'm starting today off with something weird that happened to me today. I was walking around downtown by myself, and I had walked pretty far.. when I got over by hotel fifty, I was crossing the street when a young man approached me, probably late teens, early twenties.. I had my headphones in so I wouldn't be bothered while I was out exploring. He pointed toward my legs and murmured something, so I pulled out one of my earphones so I could hear him, thinking he was going to tell me I dropped something [which I already knew I hadn't, but just to be courteous.] I said "hmm?" so he'd repeat it, he held out his finger to show me a cut in it. not knowing what to do I said "uh oh, that's too bad". then he put it up to his mouth and pretended to put it in his mouth, and then put the same cut finger towards my mouth [ I hadn't stopped to talk, I just slowed down a little] I said "OH! um. no." and toddled off. I'm pretty sure he was on drugs, though at first glance, I thought he was just a bit weird.

So also recently at work, there has been a ton of unnecessary drama, [as if drama is ever really necessary.]
 A coworker of mine, who works in a different area, still in clothing, but has another responsibility. I have been in several meetings from rumors she's spread, including, but not limited to, 1. wasting time in the bathroom 2. going too often 3. she doesn't see me for long periods of time. 4. not knowing how to do my job 5.overstocking the shelves 6. under-stocking the shelves....all untrue.
now, lets keep this in mind. She's not my boss, nor has any say or input into my job, she also has no business monitoring my performance. It all came out of the blue too, I used to be a very good worker in her mind.. but you know, life gets boring and now she's a total crazypants about work. She's 19, and apparently bored in life, or at Target, which is fine, but its not fine to stir up rumors. The other woman stirring up drama, is as 58 year old.. yep, FIFTYEIGHT and acts like she's in middle school. She hates me, for some unknown reason, always gives me dirty looks, and major attitude. [since day 2 of my employed career there] and while we're unloading the truck, she pulls my full pallets out and replaces them with empty ones. [I have one of, if not THE, busiest job in regards to what I'm responsible for on the truck. I have 6-7 pallets, while everyone else has 3, maybe 4] well, she'll take her time pulling out my pallets, leaving me VERY behind on the truck, all the while she'll be complaining about how I stack them or whatever...well, there are two yellow posts that protect the doors and sit right beside my pallets, if you're not careful when you pull full pallets out, the entire load will topple. and that's just what she does everytime, then complains complains complains about how I am incompetent. [which I definitely am not]. The aforementioned teenage girl, the bathroom whiner, confronted me on not putting the new empty pallets [which the 58 year old rudely throws before she leaves] behind the yellow poles. I don't even touch the empty pallets unless I'm putting boxes on them.


To say the least, I hate my job, and the people I work with.

learning to laugh again.

The other day my sister and I went on an adventure, we ended up by the water [on purpose] and she started splashing, I was flinching and running and being a total downer. Then I realized how old I'd become on the inside. It seems the horrors of the first year of marriage, coupled with the stresses of school and work... has taken its toll on my usually optimistic self. I took the first step that day and splashed back, and laughed and tried to regain some of who i used to be. its a small step but i think i'm getting somewhere. today I made peanut butter cookie bars... or i tried to,and at that moment i could at this moment i could have decided to either be upset and angry about how nothing in life was working out... but instead, i just laughed at how silly it is to get upset over a stupid bad recipe. i got most of it salvaged anyway.
I look back at where i was last year, even as early as march this year. and how stressed out I had been. it really took its toll on me. I feel older, less funny, less happy. even though things are 100000000000000x times better all around for me. I still can't shake the discontentment stirring in my heart.
Its my goal to enjoy life again.
I'm getting there, slow and steady.